Nancymarie’s House

What has happened in the last 9 days?

My forum for Tail Feather consists of myself and my husband. I am wondering how to get people to sign up or, god forbid, look at the site. It blows my mind to think that Sorcerer’s Place had similar, humble beginnings. Right, Boo?

My computer’s power supply died Saturday/Sunday night. Empath and I carried it to PC Medic before he left for work. The doctor on call fixed it up immediately and checked to see if it worked before we took it home. I am so glad I didn’t upload that scrumptious desktop of Ioan Gruffudd naked in a shower. How embarrassing would that be for some stranger to see? Anyway, my computer is working fine now and I can have 4 browser tabs open without severe lag! w00t! And it doesn’t sound like a prop engine plane all the time.

I’ve also started taking Slimdown diet pills. So far, no adverse affects to my system or my behavior. I have noticed I’m not so keen on shoveling food in my mouth.

I took the plunge.

I created my own forum. It’s called Tail Feather and is mostly for comments about my web comic, though other posts are welcome, too. I’d been looking over free forum hosting sites for several weeks now. I chose Free Forums because they came right out and stated what goodies they would provide. I like up front things like that. Hopefully my cursing won’t cause it to be shut down. I realize there are better words to use, but sometimes you just gotta say fuck. I think the Tail Feather forum will be easier to work with for anyone wishing to comment on the comic. DrunkDuck does lag out when loading a page.

I’ve left 2 forums and have felt slightly better. Oh, I miss the idea of camaraderie and social interacting with other people. On my RS forum, I do post comments on the blogs I read, which upset some people I think because I said I wouldn’t post after my announcement of leaving even though I said I would comment on blogs.

I have another court date February 11 at 9.30a. For some reason, I couldn’t get in touch with my immigration lawyer through phone messages or emails, so I sicced my mother-in-law on him. He called her back in less than 5 minutes! WTF? I’m pretty pissed off about that because it shows he doesn’t give a shit about his clients. So my news is second hand from what MIL told me after the calls. The lawyer will be representing me in the family courtroom.

I have stopped posting to 2 forums where I was quite the regular. The reason behind leaving is simple: they don’t grab my attention anymore. The posts have become the Same Old Shit day after day after day. I made goodbye threads on each site just so I wouldn’t end up on the Back of the Milk Carton like a missing person. I do have an email notification if anyone PMs me, but no one has, even my so-called “friends”.

Ah, some good news concerning the forum where I am a moderator. The site owner/chief administrator dropped a bomb by backing me up on Bob’s warns. So the warns I’d given Bob are back, plus Bob’s mod friends gained blackmarks of their own. The normal posters are going crazy over seeing moderators with warn levels.

While searching the more famous blog sites – blogspot, blog.com, Vox, WordPress – for new reading material, I found this oh-so-funny list:

Things I Will Do If I Am Ever the Vampire

I am utterly disgusted with the forum where I am a moderator.

A former moderator, who is now a regular member and I’ll call Bob, has been regularly breaking a few forum rules. When I have warned Bob and added a blackmark to his warn log – a warn log accumulates warns up to 10, then the poster is banned (account and IP) from the forum – one of Bob’s moderator friends will remove my blackmark. The reasoning? Bob is a former mod.

o_O

When did that become an exception to the rules?

I started a big cat fight with the mods changing my decisions and they are threatening to ban me. As I said to them, “The rules apply to *all* forum posters. There are no exceptions.”.

I’ve started looking over sites that offer free forum hosting. I’ve talked this over with Empath and he has wisely urged me to put serious thought into the idea. When I am doing idle things, I think about how I would set up the forum as a whole – the rules, sub-forums, member titles, etc.. I would make it a general forum but with a gaming edge and a place to talk/comment about Tail Feather, possibly like Sorcerer’s Place. Advertising this imagined forum and drawing posters will be the hard parts.

Something that I’m loathe to admit to strangers, mostly because they’ll scoff and make fun of me, is that I have psychic and lucid, though not always at the same time, dreams.

Sunday night, I dreamed of being back in my parents’ home. It was tricked out exactly as it had been when I graduated from high school 18 years ago. All I remember clearly is I talked with Mom (who looked as she did when she was in her fifties) as we walked across the living room to the new (in 1989) couch. The words we spoke I don’t know, but the feelings were that of reassurance, comfort and Dad’s death. We sat on the couch and my conscious prodded that Mom has been dead for over 4 months, which twigged that this was a visitation.

When I woke up Monday morning, I knew that Mom had visited me for a reason. I’ve been having a lot of troubles currently and there have been times I wished I could talk to her for that mother-daughter comfort.

I began my day normally. On my gaming forum, I was typing in a reply message when I got an eerily familiar feeling of deja vu. I believe it was the ad at the bottom of the page that twigged it for me; I’d dreamed I’d done this and now I have. The omen that I’ve set something unstoppable and unalterable in motion hung over me for several hours until I began crying. Empath hugged me and I finally told him what was bothering me. It cleared in my mind that I was leaving the last messages to people before I served my prison term for unpaid child support.

This happened again. I was typing up a post on one of my other blogs and that creepy deja vu sense clouded my mind.

I have court Wednesday (tomorrow) and I am totally frightened now. I’m doing my best to alter my routine; to change the outcome because I know that some things are not set in stone.

I may clean house. It will get me away from the computer for a few hours and possibly throw a wrench in the works.