Nancymarie’s House

My Christmas was shitty.

The in-laws wouldn’t leave the kitchen so I could cook dinner. Oh, did you know “dinner” means the evening meal? Stupid me thought that was “supper” and “dinner” was “lunch”. I take “dinner” as the noon meal and went up to the kitchen to begin cooking. There’s a fucking turkey in the oven and no one around. Apparently, the Whoevers oven is broken and they wanted to cook their turkey in our oven because my in-laws were going over there for the night. I get a little pissy when people lie to me and don’t even acknowledge it!

Empath and I ended up eating sliced pepperoni and thawed chocolate cream pie instead of turkey, mashed potatos, corn, stuffing, salad, Chalet sauce and egg nog.

Mother-in-law (M-I-L) gave me snow boots, but they were both for the left foot. I liked the boots a lot, so, of course, the store didn’t have any right boots. She also gave me polyester slacks that I will never wear.

Today, Empath and I were calmed enough to brave the discount shopping for some cheap presents. I got 3 more pairs of panties, an optical and cordless mouse that fits my hand (the mouse is made for a laptop and is very small), a Slim Jim beef stick. We bought a couple computer games for less than $5 at Staples – Bejeweled Deluxe and Reservoir Dogs.

Yesterday was a bit of a downer because it would’ve been my mom’s birthday. She died July 16 of this year. Her lung cancer came back and started spreading.

Dad got his Xmas package on Friday, which was a big surprise because it should’ve taken longer. Thank god for Saturday deliveries! He really liked the cookies I sent him and the hat and mittens. Some days I want to be back in Iowa.

Hopefully my daughter got her package, too. I’ll try calling tomorrow after supper. She may be home or at her Aunt’s in Cedar Rapids.

I’m struggling with ideas for my comic. I came up with a great one, but it involved a famous person and I kinda wanted his permission so I wouldn’t get in legal trouble. I had Empath email him with a link to the yet unpublished comic and he thought it was funny. That is so cool. I’ll put it up as the first comic in January. Now for more ideas.

The good news so far – I listed Tail Feather with buzzComix. If you read my comic, be sure to vote using the buzzComix button at the top of the page. The comic home page is dull because I had to get rid of the template in order to add the voting button. HTML I do not understand, so it will be very utilitarian forever. If you’re a Drunk Duck member, please favorite Tail Feather! Seeing my dials in the negative is disappointing to say the least.

Something I’m seriously thinking about is a second comic. I want to do something adventure-y, possibly with horror elements. All I have to draw with is MSPaint or my hands and a crappy scanner. I can’t come up with any ideas that won’t get me comments like, “you’re ripping off OotS/Girl Genius/The Noob!”.

Empath and I went shopping yesterday. He bought me 3 pairs of panties for Christmas.

I’m feeling blah this week. My forums and most blogs I read are so boring and repetitive because all they can talk about is the downfall of RuneScape, an online game I play. I’ve lashed out at several people over this and probably lost friends.

My body is gearing up for my period this week. My right foot is swollen up and painful to move, though I can walk without trouble. The only thing that makes the swelling go down is pressure of some kind, usually wearing my sneakers tied tightly.

I’ve been publishing a webcomic, Tail Feather, for about 4 months now. It’s hosted by Drunk Duck, which was the best, free host I could find. Unfortunately, I get very little traffic and no one bothers to leave a comment. I don’t lurk in the DD forums at all and only went on to get answers to a couple technical questions. The suckiest part is you have to register with DD in order to leave a comment.

How can I get people to visit/read my comic? Should I move somewhere else? Advertise on a webcomic listing? I can’t afford to create and maintain my own website. I’ve looked at creating a secondary blog to put the comic, but the only blog site that has unregistered comments available is blog.com which puts a second blog under my gaming name and I don’t want that.

I don’t know why I’m bothering to ask for help here because no one reads this blog either! Lol

Dearest Empath, my husband, told me about a thread on the Loading Ready Run forums. Take any movie title and replace one word with Grandpa.

My favorites:

Grandpa Campbell vs. The Army of Darkness

Grandpa Pussy

Grandpas of Eastwick

Grandpa Never Dies

I am not responsible for any injury you incur while laughing your ass off and/or rolling on the floor.

George Carlin has a similar one, only using fuck instead of kill.

Though I’ve had this blog for several weeks, I’ve held off posting in it until after my court date Dec. 10th. Since I’ve gotten another hearing marked for Jan. 9th, I better just begin posting.

Since Monday, I have felt at loose ends with myself. Nothing is capturing my interest for very long. Parts of my life are stressing me out majorly and the avenues I use to escape and collect myself are being systematically cut off.

The court hearings are about back-due child support. I am facing prison time and it scares the crap out of me. I can only see the bad happening because my life carries cursed karma. When something relatively good (this could simply be finding my favorite drink at the grocery store) happens, many bad things will follow to balance out my karma. I honestly feel this curse is related to my death and subsequent resuscitation as an infant; as though I am not meant to walk this mortal plane of existence and whatever Higher Power (God, Yaweh, Zeus, Allah, Buddah, The Fates, Gaia or whatever you call it/him/her/them) watches over us is punishing me.

One of the judge’s orders is to speak to immigration Canada (CIC) about my ability to gain a work visa. If I were employed, paying the back-due support (along with other bills) would be easier because my husband wouldn’t be the sole bread-winner. Apparently, I *can* work in Canada, though I need to file another application along with $150 fee. Here’s the problem my husband and I are having – should I file immediately in the hopes of getting quick approval or take time to renew my visitor’s visa by staying overnight at Saint Pierre (a French-held island)? Since I am allowed to work now (just not without a visa), I am waiting on tenderhooks for the recoil of badness to happen. I suspect I will end up serving time in prison after the hearing in Jan. or I’ll be deported.

Aside from judicial pressures, one of my forums is annoying me. A game I play went through some major updates recently and all anyone can talk about is how awful these updates are. Also, I am part of the moderating staff on this forum. The mods have an election every 2 months or so to talk over new candidates for new mods. There are plenty of good forumers on this board, but the past 3 elections have been only arguments over whether anyone should be nominated or not. I’ve discovered there are hidden “rules” for nominating a forumer:

1. Forumer must post in 80% of the subforums.

2. Forumer must have high post count (high is a relative number that no one knows, but they sure know when someone isn’t high enough).

3. Forumer can’t say they want to be part of the modding team. Though posting fake pictures of them with a moderator title is perfectly okay. (I haven’t figured out the last one.)

A couple of the current nominees are repeats from several earlier elections. One has posted twice a fake picture of himself as a mod and posted one fake picture of another nominee as a mod. Another nominee, one I put up last month and was shot down because he left forum, is now okay even though he hasn’t changed at all. I pointed out the faked pictures – which I feel fall under “don’t tell us who to make a mod” and “don’t impersonate the staff” (second is an actual forum rule) – and that the one guy had left the forums to the other mods during the discussion part of the electoral process. I find a few of the current nominees to be people I dislike on a personal level, though they have done nothing to show this as forumers. Anyway, my two cents always get pounced upon and needled because I’m the only mod who’s got nothing nice to say or ignored now because I’m the one pointing out the wrongs done.

Something else that pisses me off about this election is that most don’t want to have an election at all. I suggested early on to make a sticky asking whether there should even be an election this time or not.

I’m really finding that people don’t care about what I have to say anymore. Today I came very close to emailing the site administrator to tell him I am leaving the forum as a moderator (a demotion to regular forumer instead of being an “important person”). The site is a great place, but the subforum for moderators is becoming a real disrespectful shithole.